Chvi

stressed little puppies

Common feeling #1: stress...stress...stress...stress

Yep. 3rd post for the night can only mean one thing...somethings up. And something's up indeedy.

Over dinner, i had a rather fitful panic attack - i swear, finished dinner in 5 minutes ( i think there's rice still stuck in my throat) and started cleaning up while parents were still eating (which was bad of me...bc it's plain rude...bad christine, bad) - must have been showing off weird signs bc mum was like...go study

Ok...so i'm feeling a bit better bc a) done the rawson's note and b) got half way through epi stuff...yay...but still stressed...and this is a good way out isn't it...oh and i'm not listening to music at the moment...so my thoughts are deafening...

I do believe that we're all getting a little stressed...i'm not sure why now...but we all are...and we're freaking out like we haven't done all year...odd reaction but ok...whatever. I feel like i have to be a bloody robot for the next whatever weeks just to get pass this...i swear...when oct 26th comes and goes....i'm going to be one happy puppy.

It saddens me though to think that we're feeling like this (and by we i actually mean i, unless while reading this u're nodding and agreeing which means i mean u and i) bc we want to pass exams...study...get assignments done. Saddens me, bc this kind of study isn't important to the overall of life. Ok, sure, my studies help me be a dr = importance to overall of life but this point in time now...i feel as though we're wasting out energy.

Kind of like when we stressed in yr 7-yr11- pointless and useless, bc in the end, those grades didn't do a thing to our VCE. Stressing abt yr 12 was almost a waste of energy too - the only thing stopping it is that ur score determines how u live ur life, be it short term or long term.

I think i've been saying it for a while now...although i'm not sure how much of it made sense...but i'm pretty sure of what i mean when i say: i really wish none of this mattered. Bc to me it really doesn't. Spending time w ppl, learning their lessons, hardships and the good times - that matters.

oh...hmmm...i think that self discovery is abt to kick in. excuse me.

posted by chvi @ 9:02 PM