embracing...
Quote of the Day #1: "It is more beautiful to embrace your flaws" - Alicia Keys
hehe...while reading that, all i could think abt was 'EMBRACE MY FLAWS DAMN IT, EMBRACE!!!!! EMBRACE!!!!!' - hehe sigh....stupid soul searching business.
I don't know what it is. But i've periodically done a lot of " Christine, today, u suck bc...." recently, and hehe its not a lot of fun, but it makes u look at urself, so ever so harshly.
i really am such a sulk. hehe...u stupid stupid girl..hehe...EMBRACE!! see...its not really working. Hmm but its weird to think abt it - ok so think abt this:
* is it courageous and the hardest thing in the world to embrace ur flaws
* or is it the easy way out, bc if u embrace, u won't do a thing abt them?
I think i just may need a big kick in the butt these few days. Someone (apart from my mother :) ) to full out yell at me, point out ALL my friggin flaws (hehe omg how long will that list be) and for them to make a SPECTACULAR exit. Ego must downsize. Ego must downsize.
The truth is, i've been wallowing in self pity for a while. Ah...FLAW!!! (embrace damn it, embrace!!) and its annoying as hell....STUPID SELF PITY....hehe and its stupid really, that only U can KICK urself out of self pity - but most of the time, u just like to stay there bc at least there, it seems that, the world revolves around u....
But i guess, u do it too long, and ppl start to not care so much. They become annoyed and no longer want to be around u. MUST GET HAPPIER.
ok, i pledge that for at least to the end of the week ( i would say from now on, but yeah right, i'm too selfish most of the time) that i will TRUST that things will turn out ok, that ALL U PPL are trustworthy, that U ARE TELLING ME THE TRUTH, that when the time is right I WILL BE TOLD IMPORTANT THINGS. i will believe that family is enough (not ideal, but enough) even though i miss some of my friendships like crazy (esp those friendships that are here, which technically means we can still have a great friendship- but things are JUST NOT THE SAME are they?) .... i just miss the good times. SIGH.
EMBRACE YOUR FLAWS DAMN IT. EMBRACE!!!!
hehe - that is so going to run through my head for the next few hrs...
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